I learned a lot in Korea, but this is what I failed to learn in Korea. Before our trip to Korea my husband and I knew that the trip was for our kids. We felt like God had called us to go to this foreign country without knowing much about it and being kind of scared of all the super spicy food.
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I kept feeling this peace surrounding our trip, although it still seemed scary.
Then shortly before our trip, our church was given the opportunity to buy a building. As the admin, I wanted to do lots for this new building, but that wasn’t God’s plan. The first church service we could be inside the building was the first Sunday I was gone on my trip.
I felt like God was screaming- “I’m in control”. As we prepared for our trip and I wasn’t able to participate in helping our church adjust to a building, I heard God whisper, “I’ve got this”.
Then at the end of our trip, 5 days before we headed home, my phone died. It got water inside and it was basically a useless brick. The real problem was that I hadn’t connected to WiFi for 2 weeks so I didn’t have my photos backed up to iCloud.
My wonderful husband bent over backwards to see what we could do while we were in a foreign county including visiting an Apple Store and an amazing IT guy who stabilized my phone enough for me to send some of our trip pictures to my husband.
I didn’t let God be in control. I tried to take over. I was stressed and anxious and probably not very fun to be around. I kept trying to take control of something that wasn’t mine to control. I wasn’t letting God be the God my life. I was trying to be my own god.
The day before we left to go home, I looked to see if I could have an iPhone at our house when I arrived. But apparently it would be 2 weeks before it would be delivered. Walmart only had a week wait. But my husband insisted we would check out our phone carrier and if they didn’t have it we would go to Costco.
The day after we got home, we went to our phone carrier and were able to purchase a new phone for me. The only phone they had in stock was the exact color and amount of data that I wanted. God was saying “I’ve got you”. I failed to trust God but even then he’s got me.
Throughout our trip, right after the hardest days, we met Christians who came around us and showed us God’s love. We met many, many people who just gave us things, candy, treats, toys. Just all sorts of random acts of kindness surrounded us. God’s blessing was on us.
God was with us on this trip. He was playing a huge role in it all, working for his pan. But now I know that this trip wasn’t just for our kids. God wasn’t just growing them and teaching them, he was really working on me. Always asking, “will you trust me, will you let me be in control? Will you let me be your God?”
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him and he will direct your paths.”
~ Psalms 3:5-6
